Chasing Cars

A lot's been on my mind. I wish I could add "lately" to that. "Always" is more like it. If only I could wish for a tomorrow that would be stress-free. Even for just tomorrow. A day without my usual worries. But I can't. Coz even wishing is expensive nowadays.
So what do I do? I turn to my usual escapades. The movies, music, my writing. They are the only escapes that really works for me.
To make my day, for startes I watched Moulin Rouge for the nth time. I just love that movie. I don't know why I don't get sick of it. Maybe because it is what this world is really facing. Tragedy.
Next to my ever trusted pen. You can check my friendster blog for that piece.
Lastly, music. My greates escape to date. I am currently- and will be- listening to Snow Patrol's Chasing Cars. Well, firstly I am completely hooked to Grey's Anatomy, and its where I first heard this song. I didn't know they still made such beautiful music nowadays. I mean I am a man of the past. Musically speaking that is. Only now have I truly admired a piece of art in the 21st century. Ha. Exaggeration. An skill I have yet to master.
Anyways, here's the words of the song...ladies and gentlemen, Chasing Cars by Snow Partol.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
But they're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Spontaneity

Routine is what kills us, don't you think? Try to see yourself doing the same things over and over...and over and over again. Tsk tsk. Such a profane way to live life. I am not really sure if I said that correctly.
As you all know, I love movies that make sense. Well, sometimes even the ones that don't. But here's one that uniquely makes sense. Romantic in a way, and even tragic. I salute the makers of this wonderful film. "Before Sunrise". The only film I know that is of its kind. And amazingly the ONLY film I know that has so many lines that makes sense. Oh, how I envy the adventurous way of living of the two characters in it. Meeting in a train and decides to get-off together IN Venice where they got to know each other more and fell in love as their only night which was never supposed to be unfolded right at the moment. The next morning, bade farewell to each other promising a meeting after six months in the same station probably hoping that one wouldn't let go, leaving us with the question, "would one do?" Here are some excerpts that I love most...

Julia Delpy as Celine: "If your parents never really, fully contradict you about anything and are basically nice and supportive, it makes it even harder to officially complain even when they are wrong. It's this passive-aggressive shit. It's a process to rebel against everything that came before."

How true. I mean c'mon, don't you just feel good complaining about stuff? Being a radical is really what youth stands for. Why? Because we always want to try what we haven't gone thru which those who came before know exactly what'd happen. Without resistance there wouldn't be no balance. Do I make sense?

Ethan Hawke as Jesse: "People have this romantic projection on everything. It's not based on any kind of reality."

It is how life is lived. Don't ask questions. Live it. That's the only way to know the real answer. Sooner or later you'd find out that the question really is the answer. What a disappointment it'd turn out after all. Its like an adolescent's fantasy when done watching porn. When the time come its there, it turns out to be such a nightmare. So sometimes its best its kept as a fantasy.

Julia Delpy as Celine: "Why does everybody think conflict is bad? There's a lot of good things that coming out of bad."

Indeed. Enough said.

Ethan Hawke as Jesse: "I always think that if I can accept the fact that my life was supposed to be difficult, that's what's to be expected, then I might not be so pissed-off about it and I'd just be glad when something nice happens."

Don't everybody get that notion? Denial makes it harder for us to go through with our time. Here's an instance wherein I feel depressed...when I don't have money. And when I do get, I feel more depressed that it just ain't enough. Appreciation is lost because of denial.

Ethan Hawke as Jesse: "I kind of see love as this escape for two people who don't know how to be alone. People always about how love is this totally unselfish giving thing. But if you think about it, there's nothing more selfish."

Its finally someone said it! Actually its been said on the summer of '94 as that was the time the movie was made. Anyways love is CRUEL! It is. I like being alone. Nothing wrong with it. You just happen to miss out on the biological need for an opposite sex to exist.

Ethan Hawke as Jesse: "I think I'd rather die knowing that I was really good at something. That I had excelled in some way."

So do I, brother. So do I.

I actually have the sequel to the movie, "Before Sunset", which was made 9 years after the first one. I watched it already but now I want to focus on its lines. I can't wait to get home actually. So till then.

Brotherly Advices

Having a hard time to decide?
Life doesn't have crossroads. Its more like driving at fullspeed and suddenly you step on the brakes but by the time it is put on halt, you already have missed the only road to the right. Then you start to think. Should I turn back or should I go on. Either way leads to regrets. There always is the "I should've" or "I shouldn't have". What someone must do is make a decision fast. The longer you ponder, the harder to accept the results of which you've chosen. That's how life is and its choices are... and I'm afraid you don't have a choice.

Someone bothers you?
People always have something smart to say. That's why they have mouths. Let it in through your ears. That's way far from your heart. No need to let it sink there. That's another way to share a life with people and their alecky tongues.

Hindrances blocking you?
Walls are built. They don't stand in front of you by themselves. You've been cornered because you traced the path towards it. People build them. Probably you can go over it too...or more likely tear it down.

"What is your perspective about friends who just show up when life gives them lemons?"~ I'd buy them a dozen of apples I guess.
by: Ayman Tamano

Kid Stuff?!? No Way...

I don't get it. I just don't. I mean those stuff are really creepy. Totally not for kids. Nah, I won't have my future kids go and watch those kinda stuff.
I'm talkin about three movies by the way. Three children's movies that really freaked me out. Harry Potter, Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory, and...Alice In Wonderland.
Yes, you heard me right. I mean what kinda sicko would want an innocent child watch a movie about some man named Wonka who owns a prefectly freaky chocolate factory that has a terribly small door on the outside and a monstrously huge on the inside? That kinda stuff messes up an adult's mind, what more can it do to a child?
Okay so you might say that kids don't pay attention to those details. So how about the singing part on the train ride in the dark tunnel with the surroundings spinning and the camera focused on the extremely creepy emotionless face of Wonka? That's terror man! Still not enough? How about the freaky office then? The one with every stuff is in half? You gotta watch the movie to know what I am talkin about. As if it ain't freaky enough that it is an oldie movie. And all those stuff I am speaking literally.
Oh yeah...the Harry Potter. Right. Well, since the first of the four movies was released, I did get to watch it but a mystery lies about it 'coz strangely I fall asleep on the first 5 minutes of the movie. On it went, the curse, up to the fourth installment. I wish that "curse" stayed with me. Last night I did get to watch the first movie without falling asleep and I say...THAT movie was scary. Yes. Terrorizing even to the minds of the not-so-innocent. First on the line...that hideously large dude named Hagrid. He couldn't even knock on a door without breaking it. And he casts spells that would give you a tail. Uh-uh...freak. Oh and that ghost dude whose head hangs by a single thread of skin. It's just so brutal to let a character like that talk...AND HE'S A F***ing GHOST!!! Oh and before I forget...the humongous dog with three heads!!! What else...hmm...yeah the moving stairways are scary too...and the villains are always up to their task of terrorizing not only the good guys but even the viewers. CREEPY indeed. Definitely not for children below...say...30 years old.
You're all wondering why I included Alice in Wonderland right and not Beauty and the Beast or The Little Mermaid. Well...imagine yourself being lost in a dream-like world wherein everytime you cry, you grow big and I am talkin' BIG as in you drown in your own tears. Plus being chased down by a deck of armed playing cards ready to kill you anytime...running down a puzzle of tall hedges in a green garden...scary! Oh and finding in the middle of the forest a creepily-smiling dude having tea with a rabbit(?) and laughing at you when you ask directions for home. One more thing...as you've noticed I am a bit fond of doors...well, imagine you can't open a door to your freedom because the door knob talks! Ugh...I am all shudders. Doors, why do there have to be doors!?!Nah...no way I am letting my future kids watch that.NOOOO way. I suggest you do the same.