How to Save a Life ... DeVille Style

No matter how hard I try, things just don't go the way I want it to be. I try to have enough patience to accept these mishaps. I tell myself that things like these happens -- shit happens. It's the way of life. But that doesn't work either. Like I said, no matter how hard I try, things just don't go the way I want it to be.

It doesn't take a genius to understand how life works. It takes someone who actually cares to figure it out. So who cares and who doesn't? There are only two kinds of people when it comes to understanding life. Like a deck of cards, you either get a high card or a low one. Nothing in between. And like a deck of cards, you are never sure with an ACE. Sometimes its a high card, sometimes its a low card...it only depends on the game you are playing.

Age doesn't prepare you for what's coming. It is not a helpful factor. Age only serves one purpose. That is for everyone to have an excuse someday. Excuse to possess authority over others, excuse to claim respect from others. It is a meaningless leverage. Age is nothing but a number.

Success doesn't equate to happiness. Happiness can be best defined as hypocrisy. How can anyone be happy when surrounded by discontent? Thru hypocrisy, one can. With hypocrisy, it can happen. This is the sad truth that every happy person hides. So what can be done to be able to get by? Face life with a little negativity. Its healthier that way. Accept every cruelty it can offer because...sometimes its better to drink iced tea in a coffee mug than hot coffee in a tall drinking glass.

Ran out of excuses, I apologize.

[i-pif-uh-nee]

What's an epiphany? Even in its definition in dictionaries...I don't get it. One thing I know though, it's the most common word used in every blogs. They would talk about epiphany. But no matter how they explain, I still don't get it. How do they know that THAT's epiphany?

What's an epiphany? Is it the moment when a montage of your life plays in your head which is triggered by the stupidest thing you've encountered that day?

What's an epiphany? Is it the moment when you're so convinced that you're doing the right thing and right after doing so, you realize you've done a huge mistake?

What's an epiphany? Is it the moment before sleeping that you wish you'd never wake up for the next day and when the next evening comes you are afraid to sleep because of that wish?

What's an epiphany? Is it the moment in your life when you see everything as if seeing things on a high definition television?

What's an epiphany? Is it the moment when you stand in front of the mirror and you just decide you are not who you were anymore?

What's an epiphany? Is it the moment when you've just decided to give up because you've realized you've never really tried in the first place?

What's an epiphany?

Is this it?

Change

First week

12 swimming pools, a collection of lush flora and fauna, a conference hall, 3 cottages and almost 30 people. That's how much it took to satisfy my craving for change. Change of everyday routine, of ideas, of perspective in life... change of personality. Because of these things, I realized how important everything was-- and how time was ready to steal every moment of happiness and turn it into the opposite which is why we have the need to live the very moment that we're in. We should reminisce the past and not dwell on it. We should care about the future and not worry about it. It is necessary that in the time we're in, the 'now' that we have, we make it matter-- not because of the nearing end but because of the worth we put to what we are doing. Prove that you don't want the moment to end by making it matter. I've changed, or I think I have... or the very least I've tried.

Second week

No money, no destination, a thousand and more unfamiliar faces, a mic connected to a filthy karaoke machine, good company, good food, and new friend. To be able to get-over the sad state of farewells, turn to the good side of tomorrow. Find comfort in the simplest things that can bury the anguish. Move forward, keep moving forward... and you'll find a hand willing to drag you up. Before you know it, you earn and earn the treasure of what this life can give. When you do, then at times you think about the past...you'll understand and see how much you've mattered-- how much difference you've made. And by your shine, you've let others too.